About LA Judge / Nodecaf:



I am 46 year old VERY Dark Psi / Elemental - Environmental vampire (Dark meaning negative feeding) residing in Baltimore, MD. While I can feed via all methods, and am occasionally sanguinary (with the proper donor), I prefer Psi & Elemental - Environmental energies because they best fit my energy needs and leave me feeling balanced. Like many vampires, I too am very empathic. I read as much from empathic input in my contacts with others as I do by the actual words they are using.

I awakened at age 14 and have been in and out the vampire communities since that time. I am a HUGE supporter of community and mentoring. Vampirism is so often a misunderstood condition, even by those afflicted with it. I strive for my work here with the VC to be open and honest to those seeking knowledge and to foster better relations between the various factions of the REAL vampire communities.

Veritatem dies aperit.

LA.



Greetings,

I am ALWAYS locked & loaded for a fight - its part of my inner nature. I need conflict - I feed on it. I actually prefer to settle a conflict by putting my fist about 3 yards into it. I also know that after a lifetime of giving and taking wounds it is not always the choicest method of conflict resolution. Too many in the in the vampire community have yet to get this through their thick heads.

Knowing others is intelligence; knowing yourself is true wisdom. Mastering others is strength, mastering yourself is true power. - Lao-Tzu, philosopher (6th century B.C.)

The thing is when I get to the point where I want to attack someone or something, first thing I force myself to do is put down my weapons and back away. I then re-access the situation. I try to figure out why I am ready to fight. I separate out the emotional gut reaction. I analyze the "why" behind my "need" to attack. I look to see if I am at fault, if I misinterpreted something, "am I just being a bitch", if someone unintentionally pushes one of my buttons. Then given all that, if I am STILL ready to fight, I can then go to battle with clear head and a definitive plan of attack. I loose the emotional blind reaction charge and go with logic & cunning. I can fight with a clear goal and towards a resolution of the conflict, instead of just blindly exchanging wounds and perpetuating an endless battle.

It took me years to learn this, a great deal of personal introspection, and a good many wounds. But believe me if I am capable of it then I know that others are too.

Veritatem dies aperit.

LA. Judge / nodecaf

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